Ashes to ashes and dust to dust....

This is a very sad time for me and my family. My grandfather passed away this week. He is the first grandparent that I have lost so I am trying to find my way on how to deal with this. He has been sick for about six months and in the last month lost his ability to even swallow due to Parkinson disease. Just thinking about the small function of swallowing that I take for granted every day. The last time I saw him he said all he wanted to do was take a big drink of water but couldn't. He had lost so much weight due to this because he could hardly eat. Finally they inserted a feeding tube to help him get his strength back but things just went down hill from there. He started to lose his thoughts and wasn't recognizing us. So in the end it was for the best for him to go ahead and pass so that he would not be in anymore pain. He was 86 yrs old and lived a blessed life. He loved God and his family and fought in WWII. We miss him so much but I know that its for the best. The hard part is seeing my dad. Its not very often that you see a man broken, but that is the only way that I can describe my dad. I can't even imagine what he is feeling right now. To lose a parent or a child is unthinkable to me. All I can do is be here for him in love and support. Sometimes its hard to understand the hard stuff in life, its always a comfort to know that God is truly in control of everything and that he has his reasons for doing things even if we don't understand. Gods thoughts are higher than our thoughts, and he does all things for good. I take great comfort in this. And to know that he is always there for me.