Twilight....need I say more!

Okay a certain friend of mine,who will remain unnamed ...cough... Elizabeth..cough..cough.. has gotten me hooked...Or better yet addicted to...this series of books called Twilight. Its been a long time since I have picked up a book to read and could not put it down. In fact I am wasting valuable reading time by sitting here blogging. Anyways I just want to say thanks for the new addiction. I can't wait to start the next book!! Gotta go...the book is calling.

Why does self control have to be so hard???

Me and two of my girlfriends are doing a 12 week work out program. Currently we are on week #3. I am also trying to eat healthy....trying being the key word. The first week was the worst part of working out. Part of our program is 5 minutes of walking lunges and 7 minutes of abs. Now you may not think that 5 min. is long, but try walking lunges for that amount of time. You will quickly come to realize that 5 min. can seem like an eternity!! Needless to say that after the first workout we could hardly walk! The abuse we had done to our bodies was criminal, at least it felt like it. Now that I have started to get used to it, its not so bad. The hard part is eating healthy. Its so hard for me to deprive myself of a piece of pie, or some warm homemade cookies, or a brownie...can you tell sweets are my weekness? I feel like I actually need to eat it. Its almost like a drug. As a christian we are supposed to be filled with the fruits of the spirit. Well these consist of love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control. For me the hardest one to manage is self control...although patience is a close second. Having two small boys makes me really have to practice my patience...but that's another blog. Anyways, back to self control. I don't want to tell myself that I can't eat that cookie or that I have to workout. I am trying to practice self control and make myself. I really want to be a much healthier person, not only for me but for my family. I want to be a good example to my kids so that they will learn to be healthy and strong.

Anyways this is a real struggle for me and the battle wages on. Who will win....me being back in a size 9 jeans or the yummy chocolate chip cookies...only time will tell.

Hour Glass

Today I was sitting at work literally watching the clock, counting the seconds until I reached my freedom. I didn't think this workday was ever going to end. As I was watching the clock the second hand seemed to slow down. It was mocking me....it was like in the movies when everything goes quiet except for the amplified sound of the tick...tick...tick...tick as the second hand slowly made its way around. Now mind you, at this point I still had four hours left in my workday. I had nothing to do, no one to talk to, and couldn't play on the computer because I was "at work". It was during this time that I began thinking about how usually there is not enough hours in the day to get things done that I want to. I feel like I am always running behind. I can't imagine how busy life is going to get when the kids start sports! It was also during this time that I was looking at the pictures on my desk. One is of my oldest son Owen when he was just crawling and now he is almost 4!! Another one is of my youngest son Eli from when he was first born and now he is 8 months old!. I look at my babies all the time and see how fast time goes by. How life doesn't slow down for anyone. So the thought came to me today....Why is it the slow tick...tick...tick..of time only happens when you don't want it to? I want to put that slow clock on my babies...so they can stay babies just a little longer....so I can slow down and watch them grow and not miss anything. I want to put that slow clock on me and my husband when we take a evening walk so I can slow down and enjoy our time together. Live in this moment and not worry about the next. I want to appreciate the blessings God has given to me..not rush through them. Someone once told me that children are on loan to us from God. We only get to keep them for a little while and then we have to let them go. I know that this is a part of life and a part of Gods plan but that doesn't make it any easier on a mama's heart. Knowing this I can only brace myself to the quickness of time. Hold on to every moment that I can, and at the end of the day drop to my knees and thank God for all that he has given to me.

So I leave you with this .....
and through the sands in the hour glass and so are the days of our lives.
(used to be a major Days of our lives fan can you tell...lol)